I haven't had a chance to dress since early January and had been planning on getting to this weekend. My wife and kids had planned on going out of town. She knows and accepts this side of me, but I don't fully dress in front of her and I keep everything from the kids. Yesterday she had to cancel the trip due to my sons science project deadline being moved up a week. So instead of playing with makeup and changing outfits I'll be gluing and cutting for poster boards.
I'm feeling a disappointed and these always makes me feel guilty. I always want to put my family first and that's the main emotional aspect that I still wrestle with. In order to crossdress I have to give up time with my family. I know it's not rational and that this is the only time that I'm not with my wife and kids(my wife reminds me of this when I express these feelings to her).