I've had some slight issues with anxiety and OCD lately (not related to dressing, something else).
But my family are away for a few nights on a short break and I have to work so I'm home alone.
I went out and bought some knickers and a bra this evening so I'm sat here now wearing a nice pink top with full length arms, matching underwear and a nice skirt that I've "borrowed" from the other half.
I feel so happy and relaxed. I just went for a simple shaped bra under the top, no padding etc. I keep looking down and it feels to natural.
I don't smile a whole lot, but I've been twirling in front of the mirror and catching the smile on my face.
Don't get me wrong - I'm not unhappy the rest of the time. But this is different somehow.
I just feel at ease like this.
I just wish I could talk about it with my other half. But she has a busy life. Kids, self employed, the house, it all adds up. Not sure she needs any more stress.
It's annoying. I have no problem with anyone knowing - yet there's no one to tell.
I need to find some way of chatting with her about this. It's not something I do a whole lot, but there are so many ways this can be taken badly. I can only begin to imagine how screwed up it must seem to someone on the outside.
I mean seriously - if your wife sat down one night and said she wanted to dress like a man. That she drew a moustache on her face when you were out. That she wore Y-fronts without you knowing. That she liked taping her breasts down to pretend they weren't there. That she would put socks down her pants to make a bulge..... that would seem pretty ****ed up... yet we seem to expect out other halves to somehow just accept our strange desires?
It's a crazy mixed up world all right