@presh GG - why'd you live your entire life lonely and alone - presumably your CD spouse isn't responsible for any childhood issues you had?
Some of us are really nice - but our wives no longer want us after they find out. That was certainly my experience. Four months after coming out - she wanted me gone. So I left, although pending divorce I still support her financially.
Her discomfort trumped my misery - at least that's how she feels about it. She wants me to suffer.