Pretty much. I mean this all started with the loss of interest in sex issue, but everything else unraveled from there. Even if it was just the lack of sex issue, I still wouldn't skip town immediately. He has a problem, he was/is addressing it. And it's not so much him just thinking sex with me is disgusting, but all sex as disgusting. So, it's not like I'm the problem (though as I've already admitted, my self esteem and confidence has been affected by it). So, even if he goes through therapy and decides not to transition, the issue of his feelings toward sex and the communication problems are still there, but I told him I'd still be willing to stick around and try to work through them, while still knowing ultimately in the end it could still not work out. I hate giving up and I'm a fighter. Living with type 1 diabetes, Bipolar II, Hashimoto's thyroiditis and PCOS, I just have to be. So I have taken that quality into my relationships. But he also knows I feel like sometimes he's not fighting as hard for us as I am, even though we used to fight as a team. But I think part of it is he doesn't want to hurt me and he feels so much guilt over the hurt and confusion I am feeling now, that he is afraid to fight and still not have it work out. He told me today in therapy they talked a lot about his feelings of guilt and trying to be okay with it.
Though I will say this, as much as you keep saying how depressed and suicidal and miserable you felt, I still do not see this in him. I think that's why he even thinks about not going through with it, because he doesn't feel miserable and depressed. He just needs to sort it all out. And all I can do is wait.
Not something I really considered, but I'm fairly certain he hasn't/isn't. I could ask him to be absolutely sure, but regardless of the answer it doesn't really change his current thoughts/feelings so I don't think the answer really means anything.