Do you believe in destiny? I don’t. Not one little bit. But, do YOU think you were destined to become a MtF crossdresser? Is crossdressing your ultimate fate, doom, lot, fortune or destination? Do you feel it was inevitable, or an inevitable necessity? You tell me…
Was it predetermined that you would end up this way? I don’t see how that can happen, but others insist that there is a fixed order of things established either by a divine decree or by an indissoluble connection of causes and effects. On this site, and in this section, we can discuss the latter and not the former, so please keep that in mind…
Things happen, and that’s why I became a crossdresser, why I remain a crossdresser, and why I’m on this site dumping these little CD missives in front of everyone. Am I destined to become a writer? No. Am I destined to keep wasting my time like this? No. That is a choice I’ve made, one in a series of choices that have led me to this place, this existence, and this state of mind. I am the master of my own destiny, just like you are…
Things are not predetermined, IMHO. Instead, things are self-determined, meaning you reach a decision about something after thought and investigation. It may be genetic, but in my case, and for many of is, we decided to crossdress. You can direct your own life, and steer your own destiny – the ultimate destination is unknown, but the journey is rewarding in the extreme…
I suppose I subscribe to the existentialist view that I exist as an individual in a purposeless universe, and that I must oppose my hostile environment by exercising my own free will. There is no doubt that I crossdress to oppose the world around me, by doing something I’m not supposed to be doing, a free choice I made. I called my own shots and came up with this. There’s nobody to blame, nobody telling me what I can or cannot do, and nobody pulling my strings in a predetermined manner – I just WANTED to crossdress…
Of course, I was predisposed to crossdress, for a myriad of reasons and situations I have already discussed ad nauseum. As such, I don’t believe in fate, meaning I don’t believe it was inevitable that I became a crossdresser. It just happened, much like my conception just happened, my place in the world just happened, and my convoluted journey from point A to point B just happened, and is still happening. There’s a fork in the road up ahead, and nobody is telling me which path to take – I wouldn’t let that happen you know…
So, I take responsibility for my crossdressing. It’s not fate, not destiny, and not inevitable. I could be doing something else, but I chose THIS road. I should add that, in my case, I don’t believe in CD manifest destiny, i.e. going completely from male to female. I determined a long time ago that I’m not transgendered, even though everyone insists I must be. No, I stand alone, just an ordinary MtF crossdresser, my skirt blowing in the wind atop this here plateau. I was quite a climb to get here, but I’m glad I made the effort…
Oops…wait a minute…incoming call…
Guess what? That was NOT destiny calling…