I'm currently having issues with some split feelings about myself... About 18 months ago I was on the verge of getting burnt out from too much work among other things and my doctor prescribed me some antidepressants. Not sure if it was the pills or just mind at that point but I basically stopped CD'ing.
My gf have been pushing me to get back to it again, she says she misses how I was when being Esme, gentler, more at ease etc.
So, I've started some again and it can feel all good at first but then suddenly I start feeling silly, ugly, uncertain if she really think it look OK and then I usually just hurry to change back and then go on feeling stupid about myself a couple of days.
I really wish I could get back to my feminine me... That's about the only time that I really can relax and just be... To leave all the demands from my workday behind me and just enjoy it.
I bet some of you here have experienced some like it... Any suggestions how I can get back on track?