(I hope this is an ok place for this post, as I only have limited access right now.)
I dream of a future where science and technology will let me have the figure of Rose McGowan. Even Matrix style Virtual Reality would be awesome. However, in the real world I'm a 5'9" 300 lb. dude. All my beauty is on the inside.
Yes, I know losing weight is the best thing I could do for my beauty and health. I've been heavy since I was a little boy. I'm working on it, but in the meantime, I love myself and still want to look and feel as gorgeous as I can.
I spent many years loathing myself for being "fat and ugly," when the truth was that I just wasn't around the right people to nurture me and help me love myself. After all that time, I realized the main person who despised me was ME. Meeting new people helped. Reading Dreaming the Dark by Starhawk helped me learn to love myself (literally ). Now I refuse to let self-loathing rule me anymore.
I'm interested to know if there are other "plus sized" cross dressers around here. It's much harder in our society for overweight women than overweight men, due to beauty standards, etc. Some people can't deal with cross dressing to begin with, so a fat cross dresser must really have some guts to go out. Any personal experiences to share?
It would also be great to hear any beauty (or other) tips that pertain particularly to CDing while fat. I have pretty decent boobs for a guy. I used to be so ashamed of them when I was younger, but some supportive experiences helped me get over that.
So, the highlights:
* Experiences of being fat while cross dressing?
* Fears, horror stories, pain that needs to be expressed?
* Beauty tips for big and aspiring to be beautiful?
* Personal development stories or tips?
.ps If any heavy GGs out there have stories, pain, or insight to share, please be welcome.