For me it seems that crossdressing is a roller coaster of feelings.
Before I get to spend some time as Laura I am excited that I can express myself freely soon
Initially when I dress I am happy and satisfied that I am dressing
Then I realise that I can never look like I feel. I just look like a guy in a dress. The list of things I need to change about me gets longer. I try to change some things, but none of it seems to work. The list is too long anyway.
I then I have to stop being Laura (or the mockery of her I can achieve) because my time is up. Then I begin to look forward to the next time I am Laura.
Does anyone else have a similar experience?