I have been married for more than 12 years SO knows that I dress is mostly accepting provided I do it when she's not around but she's quite reluctant to talk about it. Mostly she is consumed by the idea I wish to transition which I don't and despite reassuring her frequently of this her fear is like a wall to us. Frankly I'd love it if she'd simply find a way to say hey if you keep it in these boundaries I can even be a little supportive but that simply hasn't transpired. We both come from disfunction a families and this has made it hard to form the type of close bond we both want. She also carries. so much past hurt and anger from childhood that it's gotten to the point I'm not sure it can change for the better and am considering divorce which I do not take lightly. So am seeking feedback hear. The divorce wouldn't be because of my dressing but since we're at the decision point, to what extent do I seek to reset where we are at with my dressing as part of staying together? While this is by far a secondary matter to her need to seek her with her emotional scaring Would this be unfair of me to try and address the dressing aspect now? She doesn't want a divorce so in some ways I want to make sure I'm not taking advantage of her and getting concessions she agrees to now but really doesn't live up to regarding my dressing so was looking for so feedback. Yet if I risk staying would I not be better off addressing and airing everything that's at issue in the relationship as part of the equation?
Thanks
Amanda