Venus Envy

[ReluctantDebutant]

In all the times I spent cross-dressing or lost in a pink fog I don't think I ever really truly desired to be a woman.

Women are mortal by that I mean they live in other words they have a life. A woman's life like any other mortal being is full of a mixture of triumphs and tragedies, joy and sadness, fears and loves, responsibilities and recreations... you know, life. No what I really wanted was to be a goddess like Venus. To be nothing more than the incarnation of feminine beauty, love/lust, and sex. I want to be as elegant as a bride on her wedding day, as sultry as a Latina femme fatal, as glamorous as a 40's pin up, as seductive as a busty stripper, and as cute and sweet as the girl next door. I want to be those examples and many more, both separately and all at once. I want only their moments of beauty and their feelings of pleasure all the time, something only a goddess of old could ever possess. A goddess always beautiful, always feeling joy, without a care in the world.

But goddesses are immortal by that I mean they don't live in other words they don't have a life. I am merely a mortal man and I have a life. A life that is mine and that I enjoy. A life I would spend trying to reach those goddesslike heights on Icarus' wings only to have them melt before crashing back to earth. It is a life too short to be wasted on such ephemeral thing like beauty and ecstasies. it is a life best lived with a mixture of triumphs and tragedies, joy and sadness, fears and loves, responsibilities and recreations, that we all share as human beings. And in the end it is life which is supposed to be shared with a woman.

[rachellegsep]

Nice piece of prose that highlights the quandry of a cd. Are you a writer by any chance?

[CarlaWestin]

Having grown up the youngest with sisters dragging me all over the place shopping, I definitely know that I don't want to be a woman 24/7. Seriously, a guy just has to go out and break something every now and then. And my idea of decorating a room is adding a plasma flat screen networked to the server. I appreciate beauty and being elegant but, there's something about doing demolition work or chopping a tree down or blowing something up.

[Kate Simmons]

My probable future is to become Nature Goddess.

[CynthiaD]

Who doesn't want to be a goddess? But you've got to work with what you've got.

Hmm ... Yeah.

[docrobbysherry]

U sound a lot like me, RB. I've given up the idea of becoming a woman. But, NOT looking like one!

But, not just one. I try to imitate ALL of the women I find appealing!

If u would like to be Venus? By all means become her! Be whoever u want to be. I certainly would!

We're ALL running out of time. Why not bring your female fantasies to life while can?

[ReluctantDebutant]

Nice piece of prose that highlights the quandry of a cd. Are you a writer by any chance?

Thanks that was what I was trying to illustrate. No I am not a writer.

I appreciate beauty and being elegant but, there's something about doing demolition work or chopping a tree down or blowing something up.

I know what you mean.

Who doesn't want to be a goddess? But you've got to work with what you've got.
Hmm ... Yeah.

I don't think the MacGyver of make-up artists could work with what I got. I kid. I did have a professional do my make-up one time. She was very good I was very passable, except..... I looked like my aunt. Hard to feel very goddesslike when you see a female relative looking back at you.

U sound a lot like me, RB. I've given up the idea of becoming a woman. But, NOT looking like one!

But, not just one. I try to imitate ALL of the women I find appealing!

Trying to create oneself into a beautiful woman is an exhilarating experience, like having a banquet of excellently prepared foods. It has been all very tasty but my belly hasn't been full in a long time.

If u would like to be Venus? By all means become her! Be whoever u want to be. I certainly would!

We're ALL running out of time. Why not bring your female fantasies to life while can?

You have done well creating your own Venus. I have thought about going down your path. Spent many an hour at the femskin website pondering the possibilities. It just wasn't me. Silicone and latex might be more durable then wax wings but they will still melt before I reach the heights I seek.

No it is time to work on some more down to earth fantasies: finding a nice girl becoming a loving husband and a good father while I can.

[tammie]

HI All: What a beautiful missive honey.

No one has ever written a better explanation of why we do what we do , Thankyou

[Alice Torn]

I hear you Doc. I am 60, time is running short. I have achieved the look i wanted, don't see any hope for a romantic relationship, slowly learning acceptance.

[LilSissyStevie]

Nice imagery! Here's mine: Picture Sisyphus (sissyphus LOL!) pushing his boulder of feminine identity and fetish up the steep mountain of feminine expression only to have it immediately crash back down into the cold dark valley of dreary masculinity. Repeat ad infinitum.

[Persephone]

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