So today was my monthly visit with my psychologist. I have been seeing her off and on for years and full time for the past 15 months. She is the one that sent the referral off for me to start hrt and has helped me down this road of self discovery.
Anyways I went in to our appointment not thinking much about it. We talked about the usual stuff, my transition plans and where I was in that, my wife and son, work and all the usual stuff we always chatted about. But something felt different this time and it was not until my drive home that I figured it out.
For the first time since I started down this road I went into the appointment confident in who I was. I realized that I have finally come to accept myself and most importantly love myself. My head was held high and I was confident in who and what I was...
I realized that all of those years of fighting myself, and trying to "man up" was just hurting me more and putting me deeper and deeper into denial.
It was a great feeling, I know the road is long and there are lots and lots of bumpy stretch's ahead of me but this was a huge moment for me, giving me the confidence and energy to continue on..
Megan