As many may know I dressed and lived mostly as female for about two and a half years. What I mean is I dressed totally female except for 5 or 6 days per year. About six months ago I decided to remodel our house in preparation for selling it, and for no reason that I can think of I just started living as male again. I stopped shaving and wearing makeup. I still wore my girl jeans but on top no bra or forms and a polo shirt or plain tee. I told myself it would just be easier to work on the house and deal with any tradesmen that way. (probably bullshit). The house is near completion and here's the problem:
During that 6 month time frame I only went out as female maybe 10 or 12 times. Now that I am almost done I can't seem to get back in the mode. When I think about it I have a deep longing to go back to the way things were but just can't seem get there. I think about it I plan it but just cant get motivated to get dressed. What is happening to me? Seems as if I am spiraling further and further away from Michelle. Anyone else experience this?