Hi again everyone!
Things have been going so well with my wife since I came out a few weeks ago. She is just so understanding and supportive, and even encouraging. Our marriage is a thousand times stronger than it ever was when I was hiding. All those years I really thought I had it under control and that I wasn't really holding that much back in our relationship, and it's true that I never really treated anyone badly or was harsh to deal with. I just had no idea how much of myself I was holding back because of this, and how much better our relationship could be by freeing my whole self to be a part of it.
It's just so amazing. I have been so used to hiding this very vulnerable and sensitive part of me from everyone. In a lot of ways, my wife is way out in front of me in terms of accepting that side of me and integrating Amy into our relationship. She has to pull me out of my shell an awful lot, but once I get the courage to open up, it is always a wonderful thing, and always makes us feel that much closer.
One thing is starting to worry me, and that is that lately my wife has expressed some interest in meeting Amy in person.
I'm scared sh!*less to be completely honest. I mean, she's seen lots of pictures of me now, and she likes them (even asks me to make new ones for her when I have Amy time) ... but ... I just don't know if I can handle those worlds colliding. I don't know how I should even act with another person in the room.
I worry that once she's seen me in person in girl mode that this will destroy her male conception of me permanently. That maybe she could never be attracted to me again after that. I worry that we'd be crossing a threshold that we'd both wish we hadn't crossed.
Or maybe it's just another case of my own scrambled up emotions getting the better of me ... of her just needing to pull me out of my shell once more.
I know there are many on this forum who do things with their SO in girl mode all the time, and it's no big deal. For each of you, there must have been a first time.
How did that go for you?
Am I right to worry about this, or should I just try and put my fears behind me and go with the flow when that moment finally comes and she says "I want to meet Amy tonight" ??