Next week I have my first meeting with a psychologist to talk about myself and what I've been feeling and thinking. I'm nervous about everything, am I crazy, is this outside of "normal" for a cd thinking about going down the TS path, all sorts of things. I know it's common to feel way this about taking big steps and this will be the biggest so far as at this point only my wife knows.
I worry about my job, my wife, being laughed at but most of all the certain knowledge that you can't re-bottle the genie. It's frightening to know that I'm going to tell someone my deepest secret.
I talked about this visit 6 months ago and as usual day to day life kept getting in the way but now it's here and so are the jitters. I really don't know what anyone can say but it helps to let the fears out a little.