My daughter is graduating cosmetology school this weekend and we have my folks in from out-of-town for four glorious days. It's a great time and a blessing for them to have made the lengthy trip to celebrate.
It's also a bit ironic that I now have a trained MUA around the house who is great at makeup and hair...but..... I can't ever tell her about the real me so - it's really funny and sad at the same time.
Before people jump me and say 'Oh come on..take advantage of the situation..stop being a baby'....She is unstable and could still make things really bad with my ex (who is twice as unstable). Why care? This daughter has a younger minor sister that I still have regular visits with and I don't want to mess this up.
Apart from the usual drama of mixing 3 generations in a smaller house - we were all sitting around last night and somehow we began discussing the fact that I'm considered by the GGs (playfully) a token girl in a house of 4 (other-cough) women. If you can't beat them - join them the classic cat cartoon always said....now who was that?
Anyway, somehow things came to the point surrounding this token girl discussion where my elderly Dad said "man you would be a horrible girl - it's good you aren't". I casually looked at my SO with that 'girl ESP' and she could tell I was crushed on the inside.
I know, I had no choice but to put the big girl panties on and carry on with the rest of the evening but it was yet another example of what I have talked about in the past of my adoptive parents being a bit 'off' at times.
Question, who tells anyone such a thing! Why would you.?
Question, I know I shouldn't be bothered, but I am.
Why am I so bothered when in male mode and they don't know/can't see the real me reflecting on the outside?
Question, should I *only* consider it an ugly remark if they said that while seeing me in girl mode?
Question, why would I be brought peace to look at a few pictures of myself in girl mode? Was it to validate my perceived beauty?
Thanks for any advice/insight.