Hey,
I'm 30 years old, with a wife, daughter and stepson, and I've been thinking a LOT on my gender lately (this being a phase that has happened multiple times before in the past few years), like thinking about it CONSTANTLY all day, not being able to get to sleep until 2am for 3 nights in a row a lot
I've decided to see my doctor and ask for a referral to a GIC (Not sure which one, I am based in Northamptonshire...so CHX? Or is there one in Leicester?) Been speaking things through with my wife and we both agree that I should try going part-time first and see how I find it, both to gauge Joe Public's reaction to me and my feelings towards that if its negative, and to just see how it feels for me in general. I figure that if I ask for a referral now, then in 3 or 4 months time when/if I make a final decision on this, then I'm already 3 or 4 months into the GIC waiting game right? Is this a really shitty thing to do?
I seen an NHS councillor last year for about 6 sessions, by the end she admitted that she couldn't do much to help me with that side of things, but to ask my GP for a recommendation to a GIC as she had read up on it for me instead and found out I could do that (didnt do it in the end because it really worried me that I might start down a path that will end my marriage), so hopefully if I mention this to the GP he should be happy recommending me without going through the councillor again.
Feeling a lot of emotions right now, sad that it could be the beginning of the end for my marriage (we would still stay friends, we have a daughter and my wife has said they will always be there for me...she's just not a lesbian and wouldnt be in a relationship with a woman.. ....), yet happy and excited that I might have started on the path to boobs and hips... kind of a weird feeling.