I dont even know where to start. She is ok with it and even encourages me. And pokes a little fun!
Anyway, about a year before I met her I was trying to create clevage. Well, I didnt have a mirror so I took pictures with my phone. The screen is just way too small so I email them to myself. I dont want anyone hacking me and finding out so no head shot and sent to my junk account. The photos are litteraly elbow to neck. I take a good gander at what I have created and in the trash they go. Delete from everything. Email, phone and computer. Check and recheck multiple times, and forget about the whole incident.
Flash forward a year, year and a half. We have been dating a few months and were hanging out at her mothers house. Her mom comes in with a letter with no return address and gives it to my girlfriend. She opens it up and what falls out. Four photos with a with a letter stating note the tat. (I have tattoos) So what do I do? My new girlfriend and her mom are about to figure out my most guarded secret. I did what any idiot would do. I owned it and said it was for Halloween. My friends and I planned something that never happened. They baught it and never mentioned it again. Or so I thought.
Flash forward another year or more. My SO and I are drinking wine and watching some Spartacus. I guess I had one too many bottles and out it came. "I am a crossdresser." I blame it on the movie. But this is when it gets weird and strange for us. It turned into some sorta drunken game that was never talked about. Not a sexual game, just that I only ever dressed when we were both drunk. That lasted a few months and I stopped dressing when she was home. Probably because I stopped drinking. A new baby boy will do that.
Anyway we lived this way for three years. She knew I dressed while she was gone and she wanted to talk about it. I did not. I just couldnt. Many times she brought it up and I would blow her off. I just didnt want to talk about dressing. I dont know how many times I wanted to. And then one day I bout a wig with out telling her. Of course she asked and I promised to talk about it. And I did. I have never been so happy and confused to talk about something. I filled her in on all the details and she blew my mind with how she felt. She felt like there was a whole part of me she didnt know. A part I was hiding and how many other secrets did I have. And the most confusing part, she was jealous of me!!!I couldnt believe it. She could see how happy and sexy I felt and was jealous of it. She told me how she hasnt felt sexy or pretty in years. I was so oblivious. So we talked for hours. She asked if we could go shopping together and do make up together. She doesnt wear any so its a learning process for both of us. I couldnt believe that I was in the way of our happiness.
Its been a few months and we have never been closer. Its just so easy now. Easy to talk and just be with eachother. I am truly lucky and so grateful. We probably wouldnt be together and I wouldnt have my sons if she didnt hang in there and wear me down.
Thank you for reading, I lost my train of thought too many times which tells me this is getting too long but its been on my mind lately.
Kris
