Hi everyone,
As some of you may know, I recently befriended a woman who is really supportive of me experimenting with crossdressing. It was something that was always in the background for me and a very closed, private affair.
I went to see her at her house today and she took me through some make-up; eyeshadow, eyeliner, skin care, mascara, lip gloss/stick/stain. She had some stockings for me to try on. At this point I was feeling very emotionally exposed but I went with it. She tried a corset on me but I began to feel quite scared.
It was quite a shock to see myself made-up. I don't know how I feel about the whole thing. I felt upset and a bit tearful on the way home; maybe embarrassed and wounded by it all. I told her I didn't feel great about it.
I feel pretty sad and upset now. It wasn't how I envisaged it to be. I guess it's about identifying my comfort level with the whole thing to know where it goes.
TO