Lately I've had question after question on my mind. I am currently married to a woman I love, we have a young child who I cannot imagine being without. My question is how many people here (m2f or f2m and anywhere in between) were married when they came out or started to acknowledge themselves and seek help. More specifically, did your partner have any idea before you officially came out trans, what was their reaction? My wife knows that I crossdress, she has for a long time, well before we got engaged. I knew I loved her, and didn't think it was fair to keep that a secret, she had a right to know. She has never been overly happy about it, prefers if I don't around her often. I think her concern is more of embarrassment publicly. She is otherwise very LGBTQ friendly outside our home. Recently I've been doing a lot of soul searching, and am looking to schedule my first visit with a counselor. I am wondering if anyone had stories of a changing dynamic with a spouse, on any level, including fully transitioning? My wife knows some, but im' terrified of what may be ahead.
I should add my birth father is now a transwoman, post GCS/SRS. She did it in a way that irked a lot of her side of the family (rightfully so). My parents divorced when I was young, she began transition about 13 years ago. My wife knew the whole story, and upon hearing my situation has occasionally checked in "you're not gonna do what your dad did right?" And "I kinda like your penis, and the man you are" my mom found. Note I wrote when I was very young (8-9) telling her I was a girl. I think she found it and confronted me when I was about 13-14 years old. She was super supportive of everything i'd done, and seemed more concerned about my well being than anything else. I clammed up and denied and freaked out and tried to pretend it didn't happen.