I'm out to see my doc/therapist today. I am approaching the point of where dressing is just not enough. I've been to payless several times now dressed (have to go in today and pick up a special order) and to Goodwill several times dressed androgynously. Today I'm am going to both places en femme - eye makeup, hair, jewelry, etc. No skirt, but femme top and jeans with heeled oxfords and denim jacket. I'm nervous as to the outcome. My wife has boundaries and I'm trying to stay within them. I want to work through this to see if its a fantasy or reality to go further. I shouldn't be nervous as a type this.... but I am.