Been working with a gender therapist to acknowledge personality and interest traits that have always come naturally to me but that I was taught to supress, hide and quite honestly feel shame and fear of being "discovered". Came up with a list of things I grew to self monitor for and have been challenged to take each one and start to work on embracing it as ok to let out. Have to say as a closeted cd this is hard for me! Fun part is two suggestions were to go get a facial and mani/pedi to acknowledge love of pampering! All of this had also got me thinking about those personality tests that are out there. Saw one today that suggested that if your index finger on your dominant hand is longer than your ring finger that this is a sign there was more estrogen in the womb than the big T. Humm turns out my index figure is quite a bit longer. Who knows if this is true or not but sure gets me thinking about maybe one key to being happier and more content is to just stay the hell with it. This is who I am people don't like it to bad! Doesn't mean I dress full time or progress in other ways but boy would I sure like to stop worrying and start being more wiling to cater to me needs even if some see them as fem.
Anyone else relate?
Amanda