Well girls , I have an opportunity to get out full enfem tomorrow , those of you who know me know how rare this is for me these days. So here I am I picked up the last missing items I need to complete my transformation. I know exactly what I want to wear and where I want to go , even planned where I will park change and do my make up. ( crap just realized I for got to buy an eyelash curler !)
Have the schedule Completely planned out. I have all the details covered. ( see earlier post for more on my situation ) now there's just one problem !
I m not sure I actually want to go ! I can't believe it ! In the past I've taken some Isaine risks just to steal a couple hours of for Lexi
But here I m with all bases covered and I'm just not feeling it ! I can't explain it. I know if I let this opportunity pass I will regret it because there will not be another for possibly 6 months of maybe a year. So I'm thinking I will probable end up forcing my self for that reason alone.
But I just can't seem to get excited for it.
I could have dressed today. And I just didn't feel like it. Can't explain it.
Any one else ever go through something like this ? Any advice ?