went to the bank this morning, after we would go the the dept store to return some tops i purchased for her birthday, on the way i started the conversation, you know i love you she says oh no, explained how i get she doesn't what to see and share this but its there, she says she doesnt understand, i say have you even tried, no, so i tell her i dont want to do things behind her back, there are a few things id like to do before im too old, what are they, i would like to go to some transgendered parties or meetings, where are these parties, i explained there was one in trenton last year, i guess it was in a hotel, your would be going dressed, yes they have a place to change there, i dont want to know when you go, you have money for the hotel room, no room just a banquette hall, some silence, another thing would be a professional transformation session, someone dresses you, yes, i dont understand, i dont understand...none of us understand it. im sorry i thought you might be more ok with this since you have been making a lot of tutu, sissy and pink references like you used to.... awkward silence.... a little chit chat as i continued to the mall, parked she returned her items and we shopped for about two hours, i was enjoying it even though i would not be getting anything and i helped to hunt for something she might like, everything was calm, she had her eyebrows done with a gift card i got her for christmas, wished it was me....while in sears i found a clearance space and bolted over to it, she says your like a girl, i said really what , did you here yourself, oh, came home she made lunch and here i am, before i forget all the details which im sure i did....
so made a little headway i suppose and didnt muck up the water too much, felt like i should share and would like the opportunity to thank reineD for her advise, cant do a shaved leg but like i said a little progress, baby steps i guess.....