Last night, , i was working trying to do brake job on my old 1976 Dodge, and forgot how to do it, lost some parts. Then, had to help my older sister help my 93 yo bitter father out of his wheelchair, into his bed chair. Frustrated and angry, i went to bed. The weather was calm, and a little cool. I fell asleep, and woke up in the wee hours, to hear powerful, blasting winds, a little rain, and snow! All day, here, it has been bitter cold, with 40mile and hour winds. Chill temp around 15 degrees. Gusts that can rip a wig, cape, or costume clear off a person! I just don't have ANY DESIRE to get dressed, or go out dressed. I had hoped to go out yesterday, before Holloween. Too busy getting dirty, greasy, bruised, cut and frustrated working on brakes. And, my very miserable father has rubbed off on me, always implying he had the worst life of anyone, while having a $2000 a month pension since 1983, and outliving everyone in his area for miles around. I am living on $850 disability. Fathers have enormous influence, good or very bad on sons. I had hoped to actually go out this Oct 31, like last year, but i am burned out.
