Hi,
maybe in many ways i never ever searched for happyness and never had to .
very young i was known as the kid who was pretty much allways smiling maybe something about me was wired in / born with . even though my early life was about abuse and worse not living my life was with in a moment of death was totaly shut down for 10 years mind blank ,sure not much to be happy about infact a not good start in life ,
yet i remained happy over all , was i covering up for my past well i never knew it so no . my dispostion was most of the time i was happy even in hardship and worse,
over the last 21 years things changed to even better i would say a lot of my happyness is about i can express my self totaly fully as was not possible before , being happy in my self as a person , i tryed to make someone in my life happy and to fullfill her . Jos of cause .
Did i , i struggled with that so im not sure you can help make or something to make others happy , happyness really comes from with in yes you can make others happy in some aspects yet when i look at that is that allready there we just need to open our door to let it out .so others can be happy with us ....==.....
Theres a part of us thats instilled in us and the happyness is there we just need to latch hold and let it come forth.
sorry if im not explaining it right, i just cant find the words, sorry .
Okay ... im happy because i am who i am and not being some one else,
...noeleena...
