I know it's good to steer your own ship and set your own course. It's a worthy goal to be a self-made person following a path you want rather than being pushed along or around by people and things you don't control. I used to think I've spent a long time mostly drifting, fitting my crossdressing in where I could while the rest of life went on around it. But looking honestly at my life there have been conscious efforts to push beyond the very basic. Those probably resulted in me crossing thresholds that wouldn't have been crossed without genuine effort. Things like speciality purchases; i.e., wig, forms, and padding; stepping out the door the first time; meeting others face to face; being in public; admitting to a stranger that I'm a crossdresser; and joining a support group all fit into that "setting my own path".
The difficult part of this setting your own path is having a recognizable and achievable goal in mind. If my goal is dressing when I can, getting out with friends occasionally and sitting at home in something cute surfing through CD.com, I guess I'm there. But there may be something else out there. I'm still searching to see where I'm headed and I don't know right now.
Much of what I do is dependent on outside factors and other peoples decisions. I'm thinking I'm probably 40% setting my path and 60% drifting. I don't know if that's normal or not. And it may be the way of the rest of my life as well, I'll have to check.
Where are you?
Do you have goals or are they a distraction?
Are you satisfied with the balance or imbalance you have now?