When I first came on the forum, I posted a thread about being teased about being gay or being a girl by friends and co-workers.
As I came out to my friends and families, the vast majority of people admitted they saw nothing obviously feminine about me, and were completely shocked by me being trans. However, most people thought I was obviously extremely stiff and unrelaxed as a man, and very obviously uncomfortable in my own skin, and that has disappeared since I came out as a woman.
One of my closest friends admitted to me that she felt a certain level of comfort and safety around me that she normally only feels around women. As if I gave off some deep, sub-conscious vibe, that I was female on the inside all of these years. She was one of the few people that wasn't shocked by my coming out as trans. In spite of the fact that there was seemingly nothing obviously feminine about my presentation.
I also never was seen chasing after women, never seen flirting with any women, and never had a girlfriend, and never talked about any exes. I was never particularly that macho either.
My family told me that my behavior and mannerisms was feminine as a kid, and that I learned to hide it around the age of 16 - around the same time my parents started noticing I was very stiff.
People who knew me when I was drunk thought I wasn't stiff, but very angry all the time.
So it seems that repressing anything feminine caused me to appear extremely stiff. Alcohol relaxed me but made me angry.
So why would people tease me about being gay or being a girl all of these years, before I ever came out to anyone? Were they just being sarcastic or facetious? Is this just typical male banter? Or did people pick up on something feminine about me to start persistently making such jokes?
I know this might sound like I should just let it go, but I'm still trying to figure this one out. I know you might be thinking, this is irrelevant, and who cares, since I'm out and full-time. But a part of me still wants some answers.