So the year is winding down, and it's been quite a year. So much has gone on for me. Still discovering who I am. Still emerging.
This last year I went to Mexico and had a couple minor operations - trach shave and orchi. I had a good time there but find I regret that I did not save the money spent for travel and everything and put it towards SRS. But what's done is done.
SRS - I decided I need to do that. I can't be a woman with any boy parts. Its not me. Doing this has become like the primary focus of my life.
Lately, being desperate to make it happen, I am working extra jobs (I have 4 now) and begging all my friends for money. I still have the same day job. At nights I am delivering pizza and washing dishes for one of the big pizza chains . This really sucks!! Having 18 to 21 year olds who are my bosses, I could be their mother! I feel so pathetic!!! The only good thing about it is that in the two months I have been working there I have not once been misgendered by my coworkers. Last night one of the girls even showed where the stash of tampons were, for just in case. Its just funny cause I always feel like I don't pass well. Working there I wear pretty much the same uniform as the male drivers do and I don't get to wear jewelry or makeup really but guess I am still mostly passing which makes me feel a little better about myself. Still thinking thats going to fall apart eventually and my new coworkers will figure me out.
I considered getting into the sex trade as an alternative to the pizza job, I'm serious. Just don't know how I could do it where i live.
I'm also transcribing interviews for a woman that is writing a book. Long, boring, painfully tedious work. But she pays well thankfully.
Still working my church job on sundays too.
And I have even been able to make a couple hundred dollars doing photography recently. I am hoping I can do this more.
All the extra money is to go to Thailand for SRS, and with any luck BA too. I am 90% sure I want to go to Dr. Chettawut and am aiming for September. So far away!!
I should have been working extra and saving money a lot sooner.