Hi all,
So this morning it is cold and my dog wanted to go for a run during which he slipped his leash and I spent a greater part of an hour chasing him over hill and dale. Huskies are great but on a scale of one to ten for attentiveness . . . minus fracking 20 . But I digress.
So as I was crashing through bush and brush looking for said husky, I got ruminating on a few recent posts about relationships and as always the old "tell / don't tell" debate creeps in with words such as liar, dishonest and whatnot added to the fray. I get it . . . some of you (myself included) have come clean, it worked out all high fives and chocolate cake, lucky us . . . go to the head of class with gold stars all around you. But that is us . . . our circumstances are different from many who water here and this is not a one size fits all . . . time to do Step 5 in the how to cross dress handbook. This is serious stuff and the ramifications of the big tell can be good or . . . oh so bad. Yes by all means share your experiences but seriously . . . calling people dishonest, liars, fake whatever is a bit over the top IMHO.
So I put this to those who like to talk about honesty, integrity in their lives and throw "liar and dishonest" down like some 17th century gauntlet challenge . . . sabres at dawn and don't forget your second. If you truly want to extol the virtue of how honest you are then own it not only in your personal relationship with your SO but with your family, friends and heck why you are at it . . . why not the world writ large?
Oh I know, I know . . many are going to reply with "Oh silly Isha, it is not the same thing". I'm sorry, are you saying it is okay to lie to some people but not others? What, we have graduated degrees of honesty? If so where does it end when it comes to the big reveal: (1) SO only; (2) you siblings only if you like them; (3) your favorite aunt who bought you a cool toy each year; (4) your best friend's brother Bob but only on a Sunday when the penguins move widdershins in the Antarctic. So just when it is okay to not be truthful in your life?
I get it, we are emotionally invested with our SOs on a different level then we are with others. We share our lives and what we do has impact on each other. However if you think you are not emotionally invested with our family and friends or, what you do does not impact them, I will call BS. Don't you think your mom or best friend has the right to hear the truth from you rather than second hand through the rumour mill or accidently walk in on you all dolled up? Don't you think they might feel duped, let down, lied to all these years? Perhaps your best friend doesn't want a CDer near their family because he thinks we are creepy and here you are lying to him all these years while hanging out as his family BBQs. What about your workplace? What happens if they find out accidently you like to play dress-up after they just gave you a big "mucho macho man account" to handle because that is how they saw you . . . mucho macho . . . not femmy femme.
Sounds ridiculous doesn't it? It certainly does. For the most part we don't disclose to family, friends and others because we see no reason to, not to mention the knock on effects of potential loss of family, friends, livelihood, and prestige. After all, we are still the same person so there is no need for these people to know . . . we are not hurting anyone. Could they still find out . . .potentially yes but you'll deal with it when you have to cross that bridge. It doesn't make you a liar or dishonest just someone who has made an active decision to keep something very private to himself.
So what about the closeted CDer who only dresses for a specific reason (feeling good, stress relief, fetishistic, etc.). Goes to great lengths to keep it private, does his thing then goes on to be a loving, caring, supportive husband and father. He doesn't spend the family fortune on panties, heels, skirts and make-up nor is he a moody D-Bag when he can't dress. He is by all accounts the same guy in every sense of the person whom his SO first met and married with the exception of this one private and personal thing he does. So, what is gained by telling? Yes it could work out but there could also be potential ruin of a relationship over something that is a private thing and hurts nobody? If you are going to say the person he is hurting is his SO by not telling . . . why is that? Is that you believe what we do is so reprehensible that it needs to admitted to like some Mafioso providing allocution at their trial prior to passing judgement on them? Or is that by hiding something from his SO there is a fundamental lack of trust now in the relationship. If that is the case then anything either person in the relationship hid or did not disclose can by definition be said to erode that trust no matter who small or well intentioned . . . or is that because cross dressing is so heinous that it trumps all.
In the end, we choose who we come out to based on circumstances prevalent to our life. Some come out to their SOs, others don't . . . their choice. Some come out to family and friends and others don't . . . again their choice. Some will even out themselves to the world . . . choice made. Providing people with guidance on how to come out "should they ask" is one thing . . . attempting to shame someone from a position of moral superiority when you have only travelled a portion of the path with this thing we do IMO is a bit hypocritical. So again I challenge (gauntlet thrown to the ground) . . . if you are going espouse honesty and integrity as buzz words in your life, then commence your own personal allocution to the world writ large before passing judgment on others. However, even doing so would not give you the moral high ground over those who have not come out to everyone . . . it is only a choice you made and not necessarily the choice required of others.
Okay . . . I relinquish the soap box.
Hugs
Isha