Last night my wife and I were at dinner. We go out about once a weekend to ourselves sometimes once every two weeks depending on what is going on. Well last night was our night out and we went to dinner before our normal shopping trip. We go to a Mexican restaurant and have a margarita with our meal. Of course one margarita lead to two. Well of course the subject of my CDing was brought up. The margaritas definitely added to the conversation. I few weeks ago I told her my CDing name was Nikki. She had a hard time with it and didn't want to hear about it. Well since then she's made a few comments, in a good way, about Nikki. So last night she started asking questions about Nikki. She asked where I wanted to go shopping and I replied with the normal places is fine. She asked where Nikki wanted to go and I replied wherever was fine. She asked what did Nikki need and I said anything really. Well then she made a comment that I was referring to Nikki as if she was another person. I said well in a way yes she is. She said well does she need to come out a bit more because if that's what Nikki needs then maybe she could work something out. I said I don't know if I really needed that but more or less Nikki just needed someone to talk to, someone to be friends with, ask questions, and share stuff with I said that if she got to know Nikki then I think she would think Nikki was a bit of fun. She said I didn't marry Nikki I married Nik. He's the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with. I said well yeah, there's nothing different about Nik. Nikki just wants an outlet. She said well you have the forum where you have voiced some things and I'm sure you've made friends there. Well of course I have but it's not the same. I want someone to talk to.
I am extremely grateful I have a wife like her. I know a few margaritas help the conversation along which I'm glad because some things needed to be said or discussed. I don't think Nikki is another personality it's just someone I relate to that allows me to CD. Nikki doesn't take control over me and I dress when and how I want when I want. So what do you think? Do you have an alternate personality that is your CDing self or is it just you in girl mode? How do you see yourself in CD mode?
FYI - We did go shopping and she helped me pick out a bunch of panties and bra's that fit. She even had a smile on her face too when she was helping me as if she was content and happy for me.