I am not saying crossplay is bad at all.
Nevertheless being a crossplayer in Korea was.....loss......
Among very arrogant, exclusive and proud Korean gg cosplayers I was just ugly crossdresser
While they do not denounce people like me directly, they always denounce people like us via Korean message board like Threadic.
Did not know what to do to make me more feminine. Since I had to study in univ and I had to be conscripted.
Could not really get along with male cosplayers since not all of them liked crossplaying. And they were extremely rare and gg's didn't like
Mongol-looking guys with awkward skin tones and awkward eyes for cosplayer.
My mental illness was bothering me as well.
And those feelings of anguish just made me buy and buy female characters' costumes.
And it took too long time to realize this was a waste and my body was too inadequate to fit in such clothes.....
I could have bought steel corsets, giant tourniquet pressurizes bulged parts of body, or i5 cpu and mobo for my pleasure.....unless I spent so much money without discretion
How could I have been so careless? Did my past twelve year under totalitarian, brainwashing education system make me do this?