Hey Lena,
Let me try to answer each "strange" question that you have posted the best that I can. But first let's change the wording just a little. For the instances when "strange" seems less judgemental I'll use "atypical" and for those times when it seems more judgmental I'll use "socially unacceptable."
No, your indulgent and avoidance tendencies are far from atypical. In fact, there are a few recent threads that touch upon this very question.
http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/...decision/page2
http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/...few-days/page2
No. This is also far from atypical. There are two things going on here:Originally Posted by Lena
1) self image. As a male you are not content with how you look and don't find yourself attractive. Therefore, why take a picture of yourself? (Rhetorical question)
2) when presenting as female you are exercising a feminine trait (privilege?). Vanity and self reflection are more common and accepted of women.
http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/...western-world)
Hardly atypical. We all dress to our environment. I travel a whole lot. When packing just before leaving home I'll frequently throw on a denim skirt and top, a simple outfit. This usually lasts only 20-30 min before the rest of my hygiene regiment begins but it is usually enough to keep me going. (PS: "shave my ugly mug" is reinforcing the body image remarks I made earlier and will make later.)Originally Posted by Lena
Same as before, not atypical. Your male self image isn't what you like to look at and our male upbringing isn't allowed to be vane. My guess is that you identify yourself as a heterosexual male (in male mode, of course).Originally Posted by Lena
No. Your only taking CDing as far as you need to in order to find your "happy place." Finding a level of dressing that makes you comfortable and feel like it is right for you is a tough thing to do. If you dress too much and go too far you may end up "over dosing" on the CD drug. This frequently leads to putting it all away for long periods of time or worse, guilt and depression ending in a purge. It almost always comes back and the "rebirth of Lena" will be with a vengeance, costing you more money and a possible high/low repeat. Just remeber, "If the urge comes to purge, don't throw it all away, she will be back some day."Originally Posted by Lena
Atypical and socially unacceptable for a male to have breasts? Yes but you'll find few will say much about it. As far as medically, you and your doctor are the only two that need to worry about it. Besides, a positive self image is always a good thing. Therapy for this? Maybe but it sure wouldn't take many sessions for someone to say that you being happy in the body you are in is a good thing. I do have to add that I am a bit envious. I would rather have boobs that I have to explain away as a medical condition than be as flat chested as I am.Originally Posted by Lena
See above a positive self image is very important and if larger nipples and breasts help with that, where the harm?Originally Posted by Lena
It may be more physiological than anything. Could it be that when you are off the estrogen supressor meds you are experiencing female vanity? (Still envious)Originally Posted by Lena
I have to be bluntly truthful about this one. I am not much of a fan of therapists. I've talked to many people who have come from years of therapy worse off than when they started with just a burning question in their mind about themselves. However, the opposite has been true too. (Bill Murry and Richard Drefuss inWhat About Bob? is a comedy that makes this point.)Originally Posted by Lena
Not strange, not atypical, not socially unacceptable for anyone looking for guidance towards self acceptance. I wouldn't expect the moderators to delete it. You've found the courage to pose a whole list of questions that many of us have asked ourselves over the years. The topic specifics are out of the normal conversation of the general public but I wouldn't consider the underlying issues as strange.Originally Posted by Lena
I can't speak for everyone but I look forward to the sequel.Originally Posted by Lena
One of the few things I find as "strange" is the 5 species of egg laying mammals, like the platypus. Now TAHT is strange.
http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Platypus
Just my thoughts...
-E