I was married for 17 years, and had two long relationships for about five years each. I enjoyed the sex, and often forgot about dressing for months at a time. But it always comes back, as we know. And I was always somewhat frustrated at not being able to fully enjoy the crossdressing, during the relationships. After the last relationship ended, I haven't bothered to get involved with any women, although I have many opportunitys. I have no interest in men, so i don't feel that I am gay. But I have little interest in women anymore either. But the crossdressing is as powerful as ever, and without a current relationship, I can fully enjoy the dressing, shave all over, and leave my stuff out around the house. Currently, given the choice of sex with a woman, or an evening of dressing and going out, I would much prefer dressing and going out. Maybe it sounds selfish, but when I'm all shaved and dressed and going out, I can devote all my attention to pleasing myself, instead of someone else. I'm not gay, but turned off on women, so where does that fit in?