so this week has been interesting for me. I'm away from home on a business trip, as is normal i bring only normal clothing and think nothing about that as i'm closeted and new enough to accepting dressing that i don't really do it that often. however i find myself sitting in my hotel room with nothing to do but browse the web, draw in a sketchbook, or read graphic novels. Out of the blue i'm hit by this idea that i need some heels, i don't know why and i don't know any women who just get this urge to just feel like they "need" some random article of clothing. there is a payless in the strip mall next to my hotel but i resist that urge as i have no where to store them and i came up here with someone from work so i don;t really want to have any kind of weird conversations.
then this evening we were out getting dinner and as we are getting our bills they seat two kind of cute ladies across the isle, my eyes as they are want to do when i see ladies of what appear to by my age i see what they are wearing. They had some cute print leggings on that in the mood i'm in made me a little jealous that i don't have anything that nice nor do i wear anything like that in public. they are talking to the waitress and their voices are a little low and she seems to know them pretty well so they must be locals. the one gets up to go to the restroom when i notice that one appears to have an adams apple. so now i was also jealous that not only did she have nice leggings, a companion, but a nice body and confidence in public.
who knows what the rest of the week will bring but it definitely gives me more to think about, perhaps i'm not as settled with where i am as i thought, or maybe its just a passing feeling from being away and a little bored.
-kat