Do you ever consider the tradeoffs you make to be a crossdresser? Not just time, money and relationships in general, but some of the specific things you give up because you crossdress.
I've traded time with family for time on my own crossdressing. I've been fortunate that I've never shorted the family budget for anything we've needed so I could have new forms or a CD vacation, but I've probably delayed paying off credit cards with the money I've spent on my CD things. I've traded trust for secrecy and not shared this with some of those I should. I've traded getting work around the yard done for time spent crossdressed in the house.
On the other hand, I've traded feeling guilty over crossdressing for feeling satisfaction as I explore new points of view. I've traded time with buddies drinking beer and watching sports for time shopping and visiting with girlfriends. I've started trading fear of being discovered for confidence in who I am and beginning to understand I have a right to be that person. I've traded isolation of the closet for a community I know both on line and in person.
It's not all bad trades, but there is only so much time in life so it's worth the effort to see if the trades are in my best interest. Or is this an unrealistic or wrong way of looking at life?