So I am finally out to all family and close friends, the pressure just got to the point that I could no longer take it and had to get the monkey off my back and try to give myself some space to breathe and grow...
The initial coming out went well in my opinion, no one had much to say and seemed to really be a non event during the actual conversation. Most of them were at a loss for words and showed a lot of sympathy for what I have had to endure. This gave me some hope that the future may not be so dark after all.
Well that was a week ago and I was hoping for a quiet weekend but I guess that was not in the cards. Friday night while cooking super for the family one friend stopped by for a few drinks, this was the lifelong friend that said I could still come moose hunting as long as I did not wear a dress...lol Well after a couple drinks he opened up with the questioning and I spent the next 3 hours defending myself and trying to explain why, how and where I am going. Thankfully it was kept upbeat and nothing bad was said, however it was quite mentally exhausting defending myself.
The one question/comment that was said multiple times was "why can't doctors just go in and fix that part of the brain instead of trying to alter the body". There was lots of talk like that so it shows he is concerned and is trying to process this news. Another comment was "I am losing my best friend" but I kept telling him that I am not dying, in fact I am doing this so I can live and thrive...
My brother also texted me e other day saying that he cannot imagine the stress that this is putting on my life and that he would like to talk in person. My closest friend that has known about me for Over a year told me that my brother was talking to her last week about me and trying to understand. She explained that she is concerned about me and that I could really use his support while I navigate these rough waters of transition.
Megan