I have read posts and other website stuff about transitioning and I just don't understand what the big deal is.
I mean, so many people I have met in chats and forum's are like, "when are you going to tell everyone?". Why do I need to? I am changing. My body is changing. As these changes happen, so will my life. People will figure it out on their own without me having to step up into their face and say it.
If I were a women and had long hair and each month over a 2 year period I cut it just a little bit more every day until, the end of those two years I had a shaved head, I would not have to say anything. For those that ask, I would say what ever it is that I felt I wanted to say but in the end, it's getting shorter and shorter and shorter. Accept it. It is happening, slowly. Slowly enough that people adjust to it. If it is that important that someone know what's going on, they will ask.
Do I have a problem saying I am Transgender? At this point in my life, yes I do. BUT, as the changes progress I will eventually be living as a women. When that time comes, I won't have an issue with it. I will be happy to say it, to ....admit to it if that is what you need to hear. Because by that time, I WILL be ready to face the issues I will have with family and those people I have loved and hoped love me back.
At this time though, I just don't want to face the issues I will have with family. Not yet.