Hey all!
Well.. I came out to my sister there an hour ago and just thought I would share. I have always wanted to tell her and finally had my own acceptance level to tell her. I sent her a text message yesterday asking if I could talk about something with her, she didnt get back to me for an hour or two later so I had lost the courage I had built up expecting to get straight into a conversation. She then rang me which shook me since I was hoping to discuss by text and then if a face to face conversation happened I would be more comfortable about it so I just asked if she was out shopping and I had wanted her to check if a new film was on sale yet. Later that evening I sent her another message saying that I had actually wanted to talk about something but I wasnt prepared for a phone call and I would talk with her the next day(today)
She called up to collect her daughter from our house since my mom was babysitting for her, came into my room and was like ''whats up?''
I spent the whole afternoon dreading it, butterflies in my stomach, the works. I finally managed to croak out that I was transgender. I explained that there were different forms of it( spectrum) what I was like specifically and answered her questions, one of which it seems everyone asks: ''are you attracted to men or women?''
So pretty much everything was explained and she said that it didnt bother her in the slightest, and in a joking way she said '' I dont care what you get up to in your own time and im sure you dont care what I do either'' she gave me a hug when I told her how nervous I had been and she said that no one should have to live with such fear and that she was glad I had told her. I said to her that im sure she has heard all about bruce jenner and that I didnt think that was the route I would end up going down or how much of my life I would be the other side of myself and she said whatever happens happens and that it made no difference.
We talked about how I had told our mom about 6 or 7 years ago and how that experience went and we both agreed that maybe she didnt respond as we would have expected her to due to a lack of understanding on her behalf and that since I was unsure of myself at the time and couldnt explain it very well that she thought I might have been in a phase.
So after an afternoon of fear and trepidation I am now far more relieved, confident in myself and more willing to have a re-talk with my mom since im still stuck at home while im studying for my degree.
Sarah x