I told my wife 2 days ago that I had been dealing with this since i was 18 or 19. (I'm 32 now). I snuck around a few times when I knew I would be alone for a while and tried on my wife's clothes. They felt good. I even slept in her night-gown once. My wife isn't taking too highly to this. She told me she can deal with the clothes, as long as I don't go out in public (which i'm not ready to do yet), but that me wanting to be a female was something she couldn't deal with. I went out and bought some make-up, fake nails, eye liner, and other feminine things. I even wear female deoderant. This has to be hard on spouses, and she keeps telling me that she doesn't want to be with another woman. . . . I'm not sure if i'm going to be able to keep her or not. Good luck with yours, Natalie. I do hope you and your wife are able to make it through this. It looks like you probably will be able to.