It has been a long time since posting. I have come to the realization that I am trans. This wasnt a happy realization though. I am sure at some point in my life I will actually transistion but not sure when. It has been forever since I have crossdressed because it just brings me down doing all the steps to hide everything masculine about my face and body. I wish I didn't have to. I started seeing a therapist that specializes in the transgender community. She ended our relationship after only 6 weeks because she broke down crying and told me she was suicidal. Before the next appointment she sent me a letter saying that she didnt want to work together. She didn't even apologize for being unprofessional or anything... ashamed I think. I have been looking around for another but not having much luck. I have a great wife who is very supportive and two beautifully cool boys but no friends. I tried to reach out to another trans girl today. Maybe to get a cup of coffee and chat. She told me that since I was pre transition she couldnt "take another duckling under her wing".... I just wanted a friend. I know this is a pretty bummer post but dont worry, not suicidal or anything like that. Just haveing a rough go at it. Thanks for giving me a chance to vent a little.