So, lately I haven't been on here as much as I was before. Not for any particular reason, i just find myself here more often when i'm looking for advice, feelings of common bonds through experiences, etc. I've been dressing for just under a year and things have gone from being scared to feeling comfortable to where i am now.
I feel plenty comfortable ordering things online for myself, I enjoy wearing the clothing as it feels comfortable, different, and enjoyable. I'm not much into makeup as i'm not that good and i don't usually dress long enough to warrant playing with it, except for perhaps painting my toes occasionally and attempting some nail art. however what has all of a sudden been getting me is that i can be enjoying myself but when i look in the mirror i see myself and things just don't look right. I'm sure the beard doesn't help, but i feel like i just look awkward.
I like how i look in male mode and i've had facial hair in some form or another such as goatees, mustaches with side burns, or beard for as long as i've been able to grow such hair so i don't really want to remove it. I'm just curious if anyone else hit this point and what got them through it. I mean right now my real option is just to avoid mirrors lol.
thanks,
-kat