So recently April hasn't been having as much fun as she'd like, and I'm rather confused. I don't know whats missing.
I have everything I think I would need. I 'pass' in the few photos I take(according to others). I get everything ready, the buildup is great(buildup as getting ready eg shaving, makeup, dressing etc), and then; nothing. I feel good, though something is missing and that something is depressing me since dressing no longer has a 'rush?'. I'm more than content to just sit and do normal things while dressed(what I'm doing now), though it no longer feels 'feminine'. I feel feminine before I dress, I feel feminine getting ready, then actually looking like a women doesn't feel feminine. It's so strange.
Do I need a boost? I have yet to go outside as April, as my walk nor voice is anywhere near passable, so maybe going outside should give me that boost I'm looking for? Maybe?
Maybe it's just a down phase? It's not like I don't WANT to do it, I'm just not 'enjoying' myself while I do it. (On a side note, that sound eerily similar to what an addict would say...)
Any advice?
Also, sorry for any inconsistency with my writing, I usually type as I think, which is inconsistent :P