Hi Y'all
So today was filled with firsts...
First time in 20 years anyone has seen me dressed in person.
First time anyone (my therapist today) has ever seen for more than a couple minutes dressed en femme and sat with me with complete acceptance. I hope to have a wig and learn some make-up techniques soon.
First time ever outside with a skirt, hose, heels, and "breasts." I walked from my therapists office to the car, drove 20 minutes home, and then walked from the car to my back door.
First time staying dressed for hours while my SO and several friends all knew it was happening.
First time dressing alone in my own home with no pornography, no masturbation, and no fixation on sexual fantasy.
First time getting dressed or undressed with no shame spiral. It did take me about 20 minutes to settle sitting with my therapist, but there was no shame.
I feel great!
A bunch of pink fog, of course, and a lot of the freedom and self-esteem and self-acceptance.
While my SO wants no part of my CD or TG issues at the moment, I am grateful that she is willing to give me some space to come to my authentic truth after 40 years of hiding.
Thank you all for your support and feedback. I do not think I could be walking through this without y'all.
You can check out the outfit I wore out today if you scroll down the page here (I posted pictures of the whole outfit a day after buying my first heels:
http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/...d-white-tights
I wore the pencil skirt with the striped socks and black boots outfit. Yippee!!
Peace
Eve