Hi y'all,
Well, I've been doing this crossdressing thing long enough to know sometimes there is an ebb and flow to it, often the desire to dress comes and goes,
and perhaps maybe some of the feminine nature with it. (sometimes I think human emotions are mostly chemical driven anyway).
Right now, I seem to be in a real negative pink fog, and looking at pictures of everyone and myself dressed, has been really a turn off lately, and makes me think, what the hell are we all thinking here, and who are we kidding? So i've been kind of disgusted by it recently, and figure we aren't kidding anyone, we are indeed delusional dudes in dresses.
Yeah I know, I'll be back that's how it works, and I'm not calling anyone out since I include myself, I often think what a bunch of knuckleheads we are here. GGs & SOs would probably secretly agree.
My crossdressing has often been driven by kind of a bucket list mentality. Like, I wonder what it feels like to experience wearing certain things, high boots, eyelashes, corsets, certain wigs, etc. Then once I do it, the urge for the experience subsides. It's like because I now have the knowledge of the experience,I no longer need to do it, and it somehow puts me on more equal footing with females in general.
But I do have to admit, being in this EBB mode as I call it, I do begin to miss the more engaged "Annie" part.
Done with rant - don't mean to offend - but that's seems to be where I am at currently.
No Worries, No Purging, Love,
Annie.