5 days. That's what I had . For the first time in at least ten years I had 5 days to myself , actually I don't think I have ever had that much time away from my wife , ever ,in 28 years , the first time I have been separated from my son in 9 1/2 years.
This side of my self almost haunts me now I cannot lie , I did indulge in dressing enfemale during this time . Shortly after they left I bathed , shaved , dressed , did the costume wig and a touch of makeup.
I felt so alone .
This is a part of me . I did feel some contentment , but ...
... Can I feel the way I feel ; give myself permission to feel the way I feel , without needing to dress in a way in which I perceive someone with feelings would dress.
Apologies ... This was just a drunken rambling of disco jointed ideas
Got to love spell check as it just changed my concern and confusion into wild 70's disco night life from the thoughts of despair where this message originated.
The message I was trying to convey : I'm afraid I was not compelled to overindulge in this way during this unprecedented time of freedom.
My body is basically hairless , yet , I don' really feel that this makes me look more feminine , and I'm ok with that because it makes feel more authentic. Knowing that if I wanted to ; I could look fabulous ;but maybe that isn't really necessary.
Can one be a crossdresser in one's own mind accepting but not acting upon these desires?