hello,
basically i wanted to be a girl since i am 4 years old. since i am 12 i know what trans means and since then i knew i was. but still, with 27, i struggle with the decision to transition! because, there are times when i feel ok with beeing a man and there are times where i feel the urge to transition right now.
when i feel alright with beeing a guy, i still think about beeing a woman every day. i just cope it better. i am okay with beeing a guy (not happy, but okay) and therefore i think that there is no need of transition, and i should not go through this when i am okay with beeing a guy. but then after 3-6 weeks i am sooo desperate and the only thing i can think of is that i have to do something about my situation.
are you familiar with these cycles?
hannah