I feel as if I am stuck in a man suit. It's like having to wear the most hideous outfit you can imagine every day. You can never change. You can put things on over it, but it's always there. Does anyone else feel this way?
I feel like no matter what I do, I'll never get out of it.
So the only thing I can think to do, since I can't get out of the suit, is to make it an Armani.
I feel as if I have to be 2 different people. The 6'2" male construction worker competitive bodybuilder, and whenever I can, the glorious feminine woman I truly am inside.
I need to be a wonderful daddy and role model for my little girl, a strong protective husband for my wife, and also the woman I really am inside.
Luckily my wife fully supports me in both roles, and helps me to become a feminine woman whenever circumstances allow. I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful spouse.
However, The duality of my existence is very taxing on me emotionally.
I am just wondering how the rest of you deal with it?
I am not in a position to start hormone therapy and fully transition, I will when the time is right.
Until then, I will continue to live as 2 people sharing the same male body.
Please let me know if you feel the same, as I need to talk to someone in "my shoes" so to speak.