Had a talk with my wife yesterday and we talked briefly about where I was heading. I told her I am proably going to get breast because they are already increased by a inch. She asked if Julie was strait or gay? I like girls and that's it. I told her it's about who you are on the inside not how you dress. At least that is it is for me. She is scared about me losing my job and our friends witch I can understand totally.
She is worried about our son. Again totally understandable.
When she asked if I going to let the cat out of the bag I said I don't know.
I will have to play it by ear. I am not going to put us in a situation where I am going to ruin us but I can't stop becoming who I am.
It's only been on this since may so I have time.
I told her mentally I'm good really good. Starting to enjoy my life and looking forward to each day.
Sometime I get this over whelming sense of guilt and I break down. It gets a bit much to process these new feelings sometimes.
We talked about how I don't dress around her or be myself I guess and it's not fair because I'm not giving her the chance to see if she can Handle it. I told her I don't around her because some days I'm just tired and and pj's and a tee shirt is good. But will have to be fair and be more who I am.
She told me how my face has changed a little and it's not so rough around edges and I when I stand it's not very manly. She did not say in a hurtful way just so you know.
So right now we will see where this go's. She made it quite clear that she is not attracted to women and she dose not know if she can Handel this but will see.
All I can do is hope for the best.
Though I would share some real life with you.
Hugh
Jules