I'm new here, and with the little reading I've done, I'm "different in a world of different".
I do not see myself as a girl trapped in my body. I don't really "need" to express my feminine side. I just love the feeling of wearing certain women's clothes and not all women's clothes. I'm sure my "position" is deemed more fetish driven, as my dressing is very sexually charged. I also allow myself to "not be in control" when dressed as I am a "he's always under/in control" type of guy in everyday life. I was an athlete and still do what my aging knees will let me do! I have been the CEO of a couple of small companies.
I love being submissive and I enjoy being "helpless" if the opportunity arises. I do not go out in public dressed, but I do underdress on occasion. I am straight. If you need a label of how I see myself when dressed, I guess you would say I was a "lesbian", as I only really want to be with a woman. (However, I would be lying if I didn't admit sometimes thinking about "what if" with a very passable TG). I respect women, but admit that I have my preferences on how they dress -- love hose and heels! I love wit, intelligence and sexiness -- they can co-exist without de-meaning someone. I judge people by how they treat me and others and by their word.
My wife was once an active participant and has moved steadfastly into the DADT position, much to my chagrin. Like many here, I would love to find an accepting, willing partner (like I once had!). Our long-time marriage is probably on it's last days (we've been married 25+ years and together 34+, with my dressing being one of the first things I revealed and she "dove right in," to my delight!) She is very aware how important this part of me is, but for varied reasons -- nevermore!). Our kids, who have no idea, are in college or on their own.
So, with that brief background, where does that place me here? Am I considered to be in the middle? At one end? Just curious. I once met a TG person who acted like I had a screw loose because I dressed, but didn't aspire to be a woman. (I am not "wordly", but I didn't just fall off of the truck either!) Just trying to "get a feel". I am open, honest, and try not to judge. I've seen a lot in my life -- just not everything!
Let me have it. I wear "big girl" panties -- even if they are sexy as heck! (BTW, I am 57)