I've been on a HRT regiment constantly day in and day out for the past 13 years. The medication really makes me feel like I'm OK and being transgender is a good thing. However over the last year I've become more and more confused on who I am and where I'm headed. It's easy to say time to transition but my life has been rooted in as a male, I'm sure co-workers think I'm a little feminine but transitioning doesn't look like an option. On the other hand I feel like a woman, I think like a woman, I dress like a woman anytime I can.
I've come to a conclusion that I may go through the rest of my life being confused with my emotions, and who I appear to everyone to be. The more I dwell on this the more the entire line of emotions come out...anger, depression, tears, sadness, becoming a hermit and not venturing out to meet people. If you ask people who know me they would say I'm a very happy and out going person willing to help anyone. Although I can't help myself and that's where the confusion comes in. I've seen therapists, and physiologists, they help but they do not have an answer for me, guess it's not that easy to just have someone tell you what's best.
Thought if I wrote it all down maybe it would make more sense, however I'm sure I'll figure it out once I'm so old it'll be to late to do anything meaningful.
KristyK